My name is April and I am made of so much more.

Hi. Hello. I’m still alive but barely breathing.

I have tons of things to do, God knows how hard this is. So I’ll just make a quick update.

So Paolo’s suffering demon chicken pox. Hence, no April-Paolo meetings. Which I guess was a goody for me because I saved money for books! But *crying a million of tears because I miss hugging him, kissing him, seeing him, him in general*.

In class, I don’t understand why I get to excel in FinM 2 and 3 yet suck at FinM1. I just can’t understand it. To think that FinM1 is the core of all FinM’s. Which means, if you suck at FinM1, you’ll suck at all subjects bigtime. But why is that different to meeeeeeeee?

I get to hang out with my Cyrin more, yes, she’s my human. HAHA. She’s miiiinnnnnnne. And I love hanging out with her because we fangirl a lot during vacant times and talk about a lot of books. And Hannah, I love her too because of our differences. We’re the noisy one, she’s the silent one. But then when talking about movies, oh yeeees. I really love them both. No homo.

I had a lot of long quiz, semi-final exams, and studying to do, I’m afraid I can’t catch up! Hoping and praying to get a good grade this semester, which is not that hard. So I’m gonna level it up to a ‘better’ grade. HAHAHA.

And  I thought I’ll be just making a quick update. HAHAHA Goodbye for now.

To my worst yet best, narcissistic, friend evaaaaah. Happy *toot Birthday. I miss so much and I don’t know what to saaaaaay~ HAHA gorr na ka. I miss our petty fights, our libak-libak, our XOXOs, our Papa P and Papa M talks, our ‘bitter is better’ moments, our everything. I wish you all the best and may God give you your heart’s desire. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH PWE. T_____T <3 

To my worst yet best, narcissistic, friend evaaaaah. Happy *toot Birthday. I miss so much and I don’t know what to saaaaaay~ HAHA gorr na ka. I miss our petty fights, our libak-libak, our XOXOs, our Papa P and Papa M talks, our ‘bitter is better’ moments, our everything. I wish you all the best and may God give you your heart’s desire. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH PWE. T_____T <3 

Proud daughter, that&#8217;s why. Papa is the 4th guy from the right on the front line. *_____*

Proud daughter, that’s why. Papa is the 4th guy from the right on the front line. *_____*

You were my first love and you will be my last one.

I have never forgotten you. I have never not thought of you. Never.

What have you done to me?!

It’s been (2) days and my feels aren’t even gone for ATB. I can’t believe how my perception of Jem has went from 'awwe he's so cute' to 'OMG you're so hot come to me and let's bang'. I have printed ATB and almost memorize it, and I have made sketches of Jem’s perfection. I have been to pure bliss just imagining everything I’ve read, 50 Shades can’t beat that! And people see me as a crazy fan girl with raging hormones for a fictional character! Hello? The have glamour, only us shadowhunters can see them! Deal with it!

TID fandom and Jem Carstairs


Before ATB: he's such a little kitten <4 my baby puppy is so precious and cute i just want to cuddle with him and eat noodles and watch a movie <4
After ATB: *approaches while grinning, then slides hand down from chest to jeans* hey bebe wanna go appasionato on me all night

“Forty-nine thousand, two hundred and seventy-five days since I last kissed you,” he said. “And I thought of you every single one of them. You do not have to remind me of the Tessa I loved. You were my first love and you will be my last one. I have never forgotten you. I have never not thought of you.” He was close enough now to see the pulse pounding in her throat. To reach out and lift up a curl of her hair. “Never.”

What’s on my mind after reading ‘After the Bridge’

  1. Jem is so hot
  2. Jem is so innocent
  3. Tessa is so naughty bringing an innocent guy to her pad
  4. After their last kiss or should I say after 49, 275 days, Jem is finally getting laid
  5. Dude, Jem and Tessa’s first time was way, way hotter than Tessa and Will’s. Just saying.
  6. Tessa’s so badass she has Herondale and Carstairs in her name!
  7. Will is watching in heaven
  8. They’re having sex! at age 150!
  9. They did it on the floor!
  10. Jem is so adorable experiencing a boner! HAHAHAHAHAHA 
  11. Jem
  12. Jem
  13. Jem
  14. JAMES CARSTAIRS IS SO DIRTY AND AT THE SAME TIME OH SO INNOCENT WHEN IT COMES TO SEX.
  15. Toothpaste and Jem
  16. They’re senior citizens, right?
  17. Jem
  18. I’m so sorry I can’t get over Jem
  19. I love you Jem
  20. Will, I love you too. 

I will never get over The Infernal Devices

For those of you who doesn’t know The Infernal Devices, (Why do you not know this? Where have you been?!) it is the prequel to The Mortal Instruments. It has been my absolute favorite and I do have the books too! 

So after reading the books, which was months ago, it took me almost two months to get over it before I started reading the last book of The Mortal Instrument, City of Heavenly Fire.

Then Cassandra Clare posted a short story entitled ‘After the Bridge’ and I was like “WHUUUUT?!” The story was the continuation of the epilogue of Clockwork Princess. My feelings exploded and I thought it was exasperating but it wasn’t. It was insanely amazing. The story was sexy, hot, romantic, sweet, shocking, everything! My love for the characters, especially Jem, has accelerated to the highest level. God Bless writers! Kudos Cassie! Iloveyou! *crying*

After the Bridge: The Full Story (Jem/Tessa)

cassandraclare:

hi Cassie! idk if you’ve noticed, but I think you’ve invoked a small (and quite entertaining) url revolution. — hornyjem

I did. I am very proud. :)

This is the full story of After the Bridge, a tale for those who might have wondered what Tessa and Jem did after they met on Blackfriars Bridge in the epilogue of Clockwork Princess. If you’ve been waiting to read it until it was done, it is now done.

Those who do not like Tessa&Jem together or Jessa sexytimes probably should skip this. (You will not miss anything that will affect your understanding of later books.) Those who like that sort of thing will find this the sort of thing they like.

After the Bridge alternates POV between Jem and Tessa. This is Part Five, the full story. As this is one short story and not chaptered, each post will contain the whole story from the beginning up to the point where that part ends so that new readers or readers who don’t remember what happened won’t have to hunt down the previous post(s.)

AFTER THE BRIDGE : Now with (sexy) art by Cassandra Jean! 

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